Gloria Ballason: Fearless

I wrote here a while back that I would do a post on the amazing people who inspire me, so in the spirit of sharing, here goes! So I decided to do a series of posts because putting them all in one post would result in one very long post that well, the length might chase y’all away. I am going to be drawing from my personal experience/ encounters with them and the virtues deposited in me. Note: This is not a biography. Why am I doing this? Other than to share these awesome people with you (don’t say I never gave you anything), I also want to celebrate the people who have (and are still) inspiring me to be and do better and also to remind myself that I too can aspire to ‘greatness’. So without further ado, let us begin…

I was fresh out of service and I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do next. Everybody who knew me knew I had always nursed this idea about a career in the media industry. (more…)

Adesuwa Onyenokwe: Timeless

I wrote here a while back that I would do a post on the amazing people who inspire me, so in the spirit of sharing, here goes! So I decided to do a series of posts because putting them all in one post would result in one very long post that well, the length might chase y’all away. I am going to be drawing from my personal experience/ encounters with them and the virtues deposited in me. Note: This is not a biography. Why am I doing this? Other than to share these awesome people with you, I also want to celebrate the people who have (and are still) inspiring me to be and do better and also to remind myself that I too can aspire to greatness. So without further ado, let us begin…

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For the longest time, right from my days in Secondary school, I always had people tell me I look like Adesuwa Onyenokwe (I’m serious, don’t roll your eyes). (more…)

Beauty

Lately, I have been having conversations in my head (yes, I do that. That’s not weird at all) about what true beauty really is, majorly because of all of the increasingly popular trends in makeup like contouring etc. and all of the crap out there that dictate how a woman should look and if you don’t look like that, well… (more…)

Hurdles

I am participating in the Writing Contest: You Deserve to be Inspired. Hosted by Positive Writer. This is a part of my story I hardly ever share, willingly, and I can count on one hand how many times I actually have. But reading that article on Positive Writer and reading and being inspired by so many entries, I have decided to share mine. Maybe, just maybe, someone might be inspired by mine.

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I was going to have an extra year. All the moments leading up to this had shown clearly that this would be the outcome. It was inevitable. (more…)

Lessons from a six year old

Couple of days ago, my six year old nephew ran to his mum and I to show us his shaky tooth. I could see the fear on his face because he wasn’t sure what was going on. I guess he was thinking his teeth was fine couple of days back so what could have happened to cause this. Immediately we saw it, we just screamed in excitement with the “ooohs and aaahs! Someone is becoming a big boy!” And immediately he saw our reactions, his face relaxed and he broke into the most amazing smile ever. Well if they are excited about it, then it can’t be that bad. In the space of those few seconds, I caught a glimpse of what God wants from us. My nephew was reassured that it was a great thing happening just from our reaction and he started dancing around.

And I remembered how we are asked to be like little children, trusting entirely, having no fear. When we go to Him and we are reassured that all things are working for our good, He expects us to believe it, not harboring doubt of any shade. It might not look like it, that situation might be hard and painful but trust that in the middle of all of that, He never fails and His word remains.

Now my nephew is definitely going to feel some pain on this journey of loosing and growing a tooth but you know what, he’ll be fine simply because in his little mind, his mum has told him it’s one of the hallmarks of becoming a big boy.

When harrowing situations come, we need to be like a six year old and believe when God says he’s got you, He’s got you indeed.
Selah…

Through Heaven’s Eyes.

So I woke up this morning feeling incredibly sleepy. I just woke up, I know. I really can’t explain it. Then I had this overwhelming lethargic feeling. I needed to get up and prepare for work but I just felt incredibly weighed down. Weighed down by the situation of things around me, with thoughts of how the things I really want to do are so far out of my reach. I couldn’t even pray because of how shitty I was feeling. Fast forward two hours later and I still had a melancholic cloud hovering over my head as I made my way to work. Then I was hit by the thought of how old I was getting and how little I had accomplished.

I feel like I am not moving fast enough. People are doing big things and making waves and making people’s lives matter and consequently finding fulfillment in their own lives, or so it seems.
Then I was hit by a fresh cloud of “When would my life begin to matter” and yada yada yada. I was beginning to drown in the Sea of self loathing. I had to tell myself, “Enough!” when I got to work because I knew that with that attitude, I wouldn’t get anything done.

I bowed my head and muttered a few words of prayer. I fired up my laptop to do some research and as music goes well with this task (for me anyway), I went through my music folder and stumbled on, Through Heaven’s Eyes, a soundtrack from the animation; Prince of Egypt. I had never paid attention to the lyrics before but I did this morning. And holy cupcakes, such powerful lyrics!
In the strong and powerful voice of Brian Stokes Mitchell, the following words hit me:

A single thread in a tapestry
Though it’s colour brightly shines
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the Grand design
And the stone that sits up on the very top
Of the mountain’s mighty face
Does it think it’s more important
Than the stones that form the base? 
So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life through heaven’s eyes.

What does it mean to look through heaven’s eyes, I wondered.
It is seeing yourself the way God sees you. You are a masterpiece. God’s own perfect creation, wonderfully and fearfully made. Filled with a wealth of creativity and an abundance of intelligence. You are so unlike anybody else, you are different in all that makes you YOU. Nobody else can do the things you can do exactly like you can. And FYI, your life matters. It matters a great deal. Even though you are not exactly where you think you should be, your life does matter. Never think differently. As we are all different so are our paths. Stop being too critical of yourself by measuring your worth with another person whom you think has achieved all those things you can only dream about, because you might not know where the shoe hurts that person.

Climb out from under that sea of self loathing and self pity and get about doing the things that have been placed in your hands and do them diligently. Strive for excellence. Wake up everyday and shoot down that voice that reminds you that you are getting old and all of your mates are doing great things. You can never move ahead with that voice in your head. Self pity doesn’t spur you to greatness, it’s a negative emotion that allows you to wallow and be complacent.

I am basking in the realization of these and stocking my arsenal, for tomorrow, in preparation for that voice. I would keep shooting it down until I don’t have to.

So, be encouraged, strive for excellence (even when you think no one is watching) grow, develop and always, always, look at your life through heaven’s eyes. Selah.

P. S.

Just in case you want to listen to the song.